Who am I? And Why am I Traveling to Every Country in the World
I am travelling the world far and wide to answer this question to myself. I found a saying “travel far enough you will meet yourself”. I think I am getting closer to this and for me I am wondering whether I am actually Mr Nice guy. Perhaps this was always a front. Now if I want something I will go for it, some of the normal etiquette that would just come naturally to me has disappeared. Some examples of this. When I was in Budapest there were only one direct bus a day to Zagreb. If I miss this bus it means I have to stay another day. It was a very early bus and I didn’t wake up to my alarm. I still rushed to the bus stop. There were five minutes to spare. You had to get a number ticket and wait for it to be called. I saw an open counter and walked straight up to get my ticket. In the past I would never do something like this. At a cost to my own detriment. I should also add I tried for hours the night before to purchase the ticket online but frequently struggled to buy my tickets. I made my bus luckily. Another time something similar happened. I had just done 11 countries in 11 days. Had a stopover in South Africa to collect my bags and because it was a working day I did not get very much time with my cousin. I spent as much time with him as possible before I had to clear immigration. The line to go through was very long and in five minutes my flight would start boarding. This is where I proceeded to walk past everyone to clear immigration and security. Most people were fine with this but one guy made a nasty remark that I should manage my schedule better. I suppose what he said is true. These are all actions I would never have done but it took travelling to 21 countries in just over a month for me to start putting myself first.
So who am I? I was born and raised in South Africa for the first 12 years of my life. I remember loving my family and them being extremely special to me. All the moments I got with my cousins and my grandparents are still very special moments locked in my treasure box. We have all changed over time, walked different paths, fallen in love, out of love, had more kids, fell upon hard times, had battles with health, finances. My love for them has still remained just as strong. To me you are blood. We may all be so different but we have our bloodline in common and if I am in the same country as you it is important for me to spend time with you and not be a tourist. I am saying this because right now I am in Thailand. I have not done any sightseeing. I have been spending time with my two adorable little cousins. This is the beauty of my mission around the world. I get to meet cousins I have never met. Right now there is only one left and she is in New Zealand and I can’t wait to officially meet her. There was a time we would email each other daily and talk about absolutely everything.
I have seen money come and go, friends, careers, homes, material possessions but family remains. It is important for us to not judge their decisions, to love them and respect and support them. Life is too short for us to hate and hold resentment.
So for me family is number one. I have had my own disappointments in life. I once started a career at 19. I dedicated more than eight years of my life to this. With it came so many battles and struggles. It was no ordinary career. I had so many dreams of progressing further. Demonstrating the skills I have but today I will never be able to return to this. It is a big part I have chosen a nomadic lifestyle now that consists around travel. I have also had my own struggles with mental health and still do but I fight this battle to find happiness within myself. I will never be able to have just a job again where I dedicate my time to make profit for someone else.I will need employment that is fulfilling where I help others. There are so many people who are in need. It always pulls on my heart strings when I see someone on the street asking for money. As much as I wish I can help everyone I can’t.
We all have our own story why we are the person we are today. I think the hardest thing to do is to turn the bad things into something good. Throughout the years there has been men and even friends I have placed so much trust in. They have lied, disappointed and even in some cases abused me. It has been challenging to try and become a better person. My life could have been worse but it could also have been better. You read of people with stories that are inspiring. This is what I hope to do. Inspire others to challenge their borders. To be better to never look down upon others. To follow your dreams and be there for others when they need help. Especially when this comes to mental health.
So often we are able to see physical injuries and even internal illnesses but it is so hard to identify poor mental health. I wore a mask for many years so I can see how others do too. It is not just about rescuing others from suicide but it is about encouraging them to live a life that is meaningful and brings them joy. It is about finding that reason and purpose you need in life. I firmly believe that there is such a thing as a lottery of birth so it can make things easier. Life events also happen along the way that has an impact on your destiny but we are all the engineer of our own life. You may have a dream, it may seem impossible but unless you try, unless you change something today you will never accomplish that dream. Unfortunately you have to buy that lottery ticket to win the lotto. There is also no need to help everyone. Just helping one person is better than no-one. The way you can do this is endless.
So go out there in the world and if an opportunity arises where you can help someone don’t even think twice just do it!